I’ve been thinking about the importance of who we are surrounded by in our lives, and feeling overwhelming surges of gratitude at the diversity and wealth of the people surrounding me in my life. I can be hard on people, which comes with the territory of being the kind of person who is very hard on herself. Sometimes I forget and put my own perfectionism on others. This isn’t fair, I know. It’s one more thing added to the list of “D’s stuff to work on.”
So this week has gone as expected: partially as planned, and partially chaotic and unplanned. That’s a good thing I think. I’m working toward goals and structure in some areas of my life, but I’m also working toward being consciously freed from the confines of my own expectations. As I’ve mentioned, September is historically a tough month for me. It always seems to be a transitionary time for me: one with lots of possibility and opportunity for change, and also one with lots of challenge and life lessons. This week has been filled with both. In my less graceful moments, Scott is the one who bears the brunt of it. He sees me at my worst, when I’m catastrophizing about the world falling apart in all my neuorticism.
He’s come up with all kinds of coping mechanisms, many of which I’ve learned a great deal from. He has the uncanny ability to make me laugh when I’m one hot mess. Haha. This week, he’s developed a new strategy: baking! He made me cookies on Tuesday when I was having a little mental breakdown (me? mental breakdown? never…). Then I came home from dance class last night to the smell of warm brownies fresh out of the oven. I’m notorious in our household for “health-nut baking” whereby I try to create delicious things like brownies using non-delicious ingredients so I can have guilt-free indulgence. My experiments rarely result in the product I’m hoping for. Scott got fed up with my brownie experiments and baked the real-deal. All-purpose flour and sugar to boot. Let me tell you, those were yummy.
The moral of the story? Well, there’s few:
1) Sometimes a little all-purpose flour and sugar is exactly what you need. Indulge now and again!
2) Surround yourself with people who will see you at your worst and love you all the same.
3) APPRECIATE those in your life who will make you laugh when the world is falling apart. TELL them, SHOW them, HUG them.
4) People who make you brownies to sweeten your life are exactly the “best” kind of people I’m talking about.
5) Take a moment to stop and appreciate the small tokens and gestures and love that likely surround you daily, and you take for granted. Say it out loud. “I appreciate you.”